Tonight's Thoughts....... at 8:32 p.m.

Last night, I didn't sleep well again.   Grrrrrr..........

It wasn't AS bad as the other night, but not real good either.......

And I had to get up at 8 a.m. to be ready to leave at 9:15 a.m. for an appointment.

So I survived the day.

Now it's time to get ready for bed.

EEEK!!!!

I'm not ready!

I have this and that and the other to do!

And I want to be ready for bed by 10 p.m.

I don't think I have the time.

Maybe I have the time, but I might have to leave out something.

I did 2 loads of laundry and vacuumed one room today.

I listened to some scriptures online.

And goofed off for about an hour and 45 minutes.

Well...........

I'm not a horrible person.

I have two main thoughts:

1)  JESUS is the reason why I will get "into Heaven", if I get there.   : )  It won't have a WHOLE lot to do with anything great that I have done.  NO amount of my goodness will get me through the pearly gates.

It will be all because of Jesus, and his mercy, and my willingness to repent and try to be good.

2)  My NUMBER ONE priority tonight is:  MY SANITY.

It's not whether I am able to get ALL of my stretches and exercises done.

Nope.

Sanity.

My sanity comes first.  Remember that.

If I'm able to brush my teeth and floss a few of them, and put in my splint, that will do.

If I'm able to anything else, great.

If not, no biggie.  Let's not make this mole-hill into a MOUNTAIN, OK?

It's JUST.....NOT...... worth it.

So -- again -- let's recap.......

I'm not a loser.  I'm human.  And JESUS is my Savior.  Let's not get too caught up in how many good things you need to do in order to be considered a good person.

# 2 -- Sanity is the Priority.

Breathe.  Smile.  Keep a good sense of humor.

You will survive the night, even if you don't get much sleep YET AGAIN.

You will survive the night, even if you have pain.

You will survive the night.

Tomorrow, you'll wake up, and be able to do the things that you need to do.

It'll all be OK.

Breathe.

: )

OK -- That's it for now.


Have a good day and night!

Little Toe on Left Foot

Yesterday my little toe on my left foot started hurting on the left side of it, just to the left of my toe nail.

It's red, and I think it's from being rubbed from walking.  The toe is a little "askew" anyway -- it's turned a little to the left.

So when I'd bump it, it hurt.

So last night I went to bed, closed my eyes, and tried to fall asleep, but couldn't.  I'd dream a little bit, but then wake up.

I believe it's because my "sub-conscious" was "concerned" about that little toe!

I thought to myself -- my sheets and blankets aren't pressing against it.  I should be fine.

But my sub-conscious must have been thinking, "Yes, but we normally rub our feet together during the night, as we're "processing" and "filing" the day away in the brain, and we can't do that with the toe hurting like that, so we can't sleep."

I was thinking, "I'm fine.  Let's just fall asleep!"

But no.

So at 3:30 a.m., I got up to take a "nature break", and to drink some water.

Then I laid back down, thinking, "If I put a band-aid on it, then it wouldn't get bumped if my feet rub against each other."  But I thought, "I'm too tired to be concerned about finding the band-aids and putting one on, so let's just lie back down."  I hoped to be able to fall asleep.

Nope.

I still didn't fall asleep again.  I dreamed a little, then woke up.

At 8 a.m., I got up and asked my husband to get me a band-aid for my toe.  I told him I was going to "go to the bathroom" and then go back to sleep.  He suggested that perhaps I should eat something and then take a Clonazepam so that it would help me sleep.  I thought that was a good idea, since I NEEDED some sleep.

So I did all of that, and then at around 9:30 a.m., laid back down until around 1:30 p.m.

I could have slept some more, but I was hungry, and wanted to get up so that I'd be able to sleep tonight.

So I got up and I have been up all day.

Now it's 8:15 p.m., and I'm getting ready for bed.  I'm still quite tired from the Clonazepam, and not being able to sleep the full 8 hours that it'll put me to sleep for.

I'm looking forward to a good night's rest.

Things I'm thankful for are:

1)  I was able to stay calm all night and even this morning before I laid down again at 9:30.  So that is very good.

2)  I had prayed for Heavenly Father to help me, and he did.

I pray that he helps me again tonight, so that I can sleep well.

The pain in my back is doing better lately!  Yay!

The micro-bead "travel pillow" that has the snap in the front is what I slip onto my arm each night.  I put it under my left triceps.  That helps my arm get comfortable so that my back doesn't hurt so much.

ALSO -- per the suggestions of my Chiropractor and my chiropractor brother, I started lifting weights 3 weeks ago!!!  THAT has helped a LOT.

Now, when I lie down at night, I lie on my right side for a few minutes, then I put the travel pillow on my upper left arm, and then roll onto my back, and then I adjust the travel pillow a little bit, and then after only a couple of minutes (instead of a couple of hours), the pain in my back subsides enough to be able to sleep.

So -- Although last night was mostly sleepless, I survived, and for the last 3 weeks, the pain in my back has been less than it's ever been in the last 2 years.

I am very thankful for that.

I think that's it for now!

That's the latest news!

Have a good day!