"This isn't an active Volcano..................."

1-27-14

Wow.  Those feelings are creeping up again, so I'm here to blog about it.  "News -- AS it Happens!"  (Sorry for any mis-spellings or grammar errors.  I don't want to have to read through this after typing it all.)   : )

This month I've taken 3 Clonazepam pills during the whole month -- 3 separate times.

I would rather not take it.  I don't want to have to take any.

Currently, I have chest congestion, and some nose congestion, so I'm taking Mucinex and prescription strength Sudafed.

I know that the strength to overcome and deal with the panic attacks, or whatever you want to call it -- the strength comes from GOD.

I do NOT have the strength to deal with it.  Nope.  I am WEAK.

But by praying to Heavenly Father, and asking for His help, I can make it through the trial.

So I am praying to Heavenly Father that He will give me some of His strength.  I know He has LOTS of power, and that He will help me.

I know that during this life, we will experience things that aren't pleasant.

But I know that God is there.  He wants us to pray to Him for help.

I will breathe in and out.  Deeply.  I will smile!  That helps.  I will think of something funny.

Things that are good that have happened today are:

I went on a walk this morning.  I ate a good lunch that had vegetables in it (stir-fry veggies with chicken and rice).

I was able to talk to my son tonight.  That was very nice.

I'm breathing.

Smiling.

I am HOPING that I am able to sleep tonight.

The Mucinex and the Sudafed BOTH help me be able to breathe pretty well.  The Mucinex does its job of helping expectorate what's in my lungs.

In about another hour, I'll take another 12-hour Mucinex.

I've been cold today.  Right now I have a sweater and my warm, hooded, zip-up sweatshirt on, with the hood on.

I haven't eaten anything for dinner yet.

OK -- in regards to the title for this post -- I put, "This isn't an active Volcano.........." because each day, I think to myself -- I know that I've had "panic attacks" for many years now, but it's not going to happen again.  I don't have a problem.

Riiiiiigggggghhhhhhhttttttttttttttttttttttttttt...................................

: )

So it's been a while since I've read my helpful books that I have that have positive thoughts in them, which help me!

But ----------- as I've mentioned in another post -- now is NOT the time to be thinking of all of my short-comings!

Thinking of things that I'm thankful helps.

I'm thankful for the medicine that I have that helps me be able to breathe.  I'm thankful that I was able to talk to my son today.  I'm thankful for food to eat.  I'm thankful for indoor plumbing.  I'm thankful for a loving family.  I'm thankful for friends that think I'm funny.  I'm thankful for the talent of playing the piano.  I'm thankful for my overall health.  I'm thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life.  I'm thankful to know that Jesus has suffered for my sins, so if I repent, I can be forgiven.  I don't have to carry around the burden of all of my mistakes.

Although we live in a world where there is sin and sorrow, I believe that Jesus will come again soon, and that one day, I can live with Heavenly Father again and be beyond all of this unpleasantness.

I'm here right now.  So since I'm here, and Jesus's 2nd Coming hasn't happened yet, I get the opportunity to endure each day.

I am reminding myself to Smile.  : )   Breathe.   : )  It's going to be OK.

Smile.  Breathe.  Have FAITH and HOPE.

Any negative thoughts that enter my brain are not from Heavenly Father.

I can clear the stage of my mind.  I can go up in a cherry picker, above it all.  I can have the protection I need by praying to Heavenly Father to help me and to protect me from negative thoughts.

I can envision tomorrow............  Tomorrow, after I get up, somewhere after 9 a.m. or 11 a.m., I will be doing a lot better.

The sun will be back up in the sky.  You'll eat breakfast, lunch, dinner......  You'll read some scriptures.  You'll listen to a General Conference talk........ You'll smile.  You'll be OK.

Heavenly Father will help you through this night, and every other night.

I love the song, "Abide With Me 'Tis Eventide".  I love the song, "This is The Christ".  I love the Welsh lullaby, "Suo Gan".

Things I try to remember are:  Sometimes you're up.  Sometimes you're down.  Look at the doughnut.  Take one day at a time.  Tomorrow is a new day!  Slow down.  It might work out better than you can imagine.  There's always something to do.  There will always be problems to solve, or that will not be solved.

Let's see -- anything else?

I'm trying to do the best that I can each day.

I recently read some good advice.  "Laugh each day."  That is really good advice.

Be content with whatever's going on at the moment.  Accept whatever's happening.  It is what it is.

Attitude is everything.  Lighten up!  Some things in life are serious things.  But not everything needs to be dealt with so seriously.

Stuff happens.  Life happens.  We live and keep moving on.

Learn from those who have gone before you.  Read what they have had to say about how they dealt with life.

Do good to others.  Love others.  Live high moral standards.  Go to Church.

Just typing those things makes me a little anxious!  Hmmmmmmm.................  all of those "NEED to" things.  "Should do......" things.

So.......... again -- try to do the best that you can.  Repent.  We will ALL make mistakes every single day.

That's why we need Jesus.  That's why he made the atonement for us.

Breathe.

And smile.

And start again tomorrow.

Try again tomorrow.

It'll be alright in the end.

I'm not totally feeling better right now, but I think I'll end here anyway.

May GOD bless each of you as you go through your own personal struggles.  It is difficult, but Heavenly Father will lighten your load as you turn to Him.  Pray to Him in the name of Jesus Christ.  He will send you a portion of his strength!  You don't need much of HIS strength!  A little dab-'ll do it!

I am weak, but He is strong.

I can do this.  I will make it through, with God's help.

'Til next time.........  See ya.   : )

P.S.  I wish I didn't have to "hang-up"..............  but I do, and I will................  I can call the county help hotline if I need to, and I can also talk with my husband......... AND Heavenly Father.  I can ask Him to send His Angles......  It's going to be OK.   : )