My head hurts. I had a "panic attack" this morning -- from around 6 a.m. to 8 or 8:30 a.m.
That is an odd time for me to have a panic attack. They're typically late at night or early in the morning (3 or 4 a.m.). I don't typically have them during the day. But it was still early in the morning -- just not super early.
The last panic attack I had was about 3 weeks ago, and it was almost 3 straight nights in a row, and I took my medicine for it each time.
Today, I did not take my medicine, because I had already slept well last night, and I didn't want to sleep 4-8 more hours, which would happen if I took the medicine.
I felt like I would be able to deal with the normal "doom and gloom" feelings that I get, and thankfully, with prayer and God's help, I was able to stay calm enough. I breathed in slowly and just tried to remember that it would end soon. It normally only lasts about 3 hours, so I'd be feeling better by Noon.
I was hot and cold.
Some of the thoughts that entered my brain were regarding a minor medical issue that I'm having -- "Will I get the help I need? I NEED HELP!". I had to remember that yes, I just need to call the doctor this morning, and he'll help me.
One of the other negative thoughts was something like: "When I'm older, I'll be in pain, and I'll have nothing to do but sit around and be in pain, and I don't want that."
I had to work at not thinking "Oh NO! The Sky Is Falling!!!!!!!" thoughts.
I looked through old papers which I want to organize, and I found a couple of mood-lifting letters. One was from a friend who sent out their Christmas letter, and she said, "Here is our annual journal entry that we send out to friends and family in hopes of catching up and relieving our conscience." : ) Ha ha! I thought that was funny! She is a long-time friend, and I have always admired her "go-get-'em", fearless attitude.
The other letter I found was from my sister, who was on a mission for our Church, and she wrote on a "Happy Birthday" napkin for my birthday, and wrote, "Hope all is well -- enjoy life! Take things as they come & SMILE!".
: ) I was glad that I found both of those letters this morning. : ) They helped me to lighten up a bit and remember to laugh and keep a sense of humor.
Right now, it's like my brain has had a total mental work-out and is exhausted.
When I told my husband that I had a headache, he said something like, "It's probably because your brain rapidly mis-fired signals, so now you have a headache."
My husband noticed that my voice sounded labored during the "episode". I noticed it too, and he says that my voice sounds more normal now.
It's now 10 a.m., and I'm doing better mentally. The thoughts are gone, but my head still really hurts, and I feel like sleeping.
I am very thankful that I'm doing better, and that I didn't have to take the medicine.
'Til next time -- Take it easy! Do LESS more SLOWLY.........
Remember to keep a sense of humor about this life we live!
Breathe and smile!
