Last month and this month have been pretty good for me.
Although tonight, I'm feeling a bit on the antsy side, and am considering taking a Clonazepam. I haven't decided yet for sure....
Tonight I was thinking about how to explain what I feel during a "panic attack", and I think I've got a description that fits really well.
Imagine that you're driving down a wide open highway out in the middle of nowhere at 9 o'clock at night. You need to go to the bathroom really badly (#1 and 2) because you haven't gone for about 6 or 7 hours. But the nearest place with "facilities" is 3 hours away.
You're also starving, because the last thing you ate was a half of a bowl of cereal as you rushed out the door at 7 o'clock this morning, and you forgot your bag full of snacks on the kitchen table.
On top of all of that, there's a blizzard outside, it's slippery, you left your chains at home, and you're freezing cold because your heater quit about an hour ago.
And your gas tank is just about empty.
That right there -- the feelings of needing to "get some relief" by visiting a "facility", along with the feeling of being very hungry and very cold -- feeling all of those THREE feelings at the SAME time, with no relief in sight -- That might come somewhat close to how it feels for me to have a "panic attack". (And reading all of what I just typed doesn't help me!!!) : )
One of the thoughts I had as I thought about that analogy is that during the panicky feelings, I also worry about ALL of the things I either have or haven't done. And I get the urge to want to do everything I need to do.
That's it.
I just thought about all of that and thought I'd type it up.
May God Bless you with PEACE and comfort.
Breathe in and out.
Smile!
It's really going to be OK.
I'm going to be OK.
I've been OK for several days now in a row -- almost 2 months actually.
So no matter how I feel tonight......... sore throat with allergies; boots that don't exactly fit right for helping out at the horse place, and whatever else I might be concerned about tonight..........
It's all going to be OK in the end.
Yep.
: )
Sometimes you're up. Sometimes you're not as up. : )
I don't like this feeling that's creeping up on me, but I'll survive. I'll make it through it.
With God's help, I'll make it through.
