Howdy!
As I sit here, I feel like I'm about to play a song on the piano, in a big concert hall, for a ton of people to listen to, so I'm wanting to make sure I play every note right!!
Yes, I play the piano. : )
I started playing the piano when I was 5 years old.
Maybe I'll talk more about that another time. : )
Today is Monday.
Saturday night, we stayed up until around 12 midnight. I wanted to bake cookies to give to our friends and neighbors who had helped us re-shingle our roof. I also wanted to make some pizza dough to make either pizza or cheese bread for the church get-together the next day.
Saturday, when I finally got to bed, I was concerned about being able to sleep since I was SO tired, and I knew that I'd have to deal with my nightly 1/2 hour to hour-long (or more) challenge of being able to get comfortable enough to fall asleep.
But I prayed for help with my thoughts, and I kept on telling myself that I was OK.
I finally fell asleep, then woke up at 6 a.m. to take a "nature break", then was concerned again about falling back asleep, due to pain and my stuffy nose, but again, I prayed for help, and I reminded myself that I was OK, and that if I couldn't go back to sleep, that would be OK too.
Then last night, we went to bed at around 10:30 p.m., which is good, and I fell asleep after about the normal 1/2 hour that it takes to get comfortable, and then at around 3 or 3:30 a.m., I woke up to take a "nature break", and then, due to pain, I could not get comfortable.
I sleep with a pillow underneath my left arm (in order to elevate it enough for the pain in my back to subside enough for me to fall asleep). Therefore, my left elbow and left hand sometimes hurt or are uncomfortable.
Last night, my back, elbow and hand all hurt, no matter what I did.
It was starting to get frustrating.
I was VERY tired, and wanted to go to sleep, but couldn't because of all of the pain and discomfort.
I decided to just breathe and pray and remember that I am OK. I'll get through this and the morning will come and I'll be OK.
I thought about how I would LIKE to be like the people in the hospital who end up cheering-up their visitors instead of the other way around! I want to have THAT kind of an attitude about my situation!
It was still a challenge to think positive thoughts amid thoughts of frustration and being tired and ready to just sleep instead of trying to get comfortable. But with lots of help from Heavenly Father, I was able to stay calm. Yay!!!!!!!!!!
I continued "trying to sleep" for about 3 hours total.
Then, sometime after 6 a.m., I was finally able to fall asleep on my back with my pillow underneath my left arm.
Yay!!!!!!
That's how the last two nights have gone for me.
I am so thankful that I was able to just stay calm and endure the pain and sleeplessness without having to take any "anti-panic" medicine. : )
When I talk to others about how my night went last night, it helps me to just keep a sense of humor, and a "That's just the way it is sometimes..." attitude, because being upset about it does NOT help my attitude or mental state.
When I get upset about how it went, then I have no options, and life's horrible.
But if I think positive thoughts and keep a sense of HUMOR about it all, then I have more options! Life is bearable. I can do this. And I remember that Heavenly Father will continue to help me each night. He hasn't removed my problems from me YET, but he helps me through them.
May you have a good day! Remember to pray for help when you need it. : )
Bye! Adios! Auf Wiedersehen! Au Revoir! до свидания!
Monday, November 18, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Me Again!
I had a few thoughts this morning that I wanted to mention.
For the last couple of nights, we've gotten to bed late. : / Grrrrrrr........
It's all fun and games until the morning comes, or a few hours into sleep comes and you're awake and not doing so good due to lack of sleep!
Anyway -- I KNOW how important it is for me to do my stretches every night before I go to bed so that I can sleep without pain in my back. For those of you asking, "What pain?"....... I have pain in my back every single night. It's on the left side below my left scapula (shoulder blade).
Every.
Single.
Night.
Yep.
So........................
Therefore, I go to a Chiropractor each month, and he has "prescribed" for me exercises/stretches to do every morning and night. He also has asked me to walk about 4 times a week for 30-40 minutes each time.
The last 2 nights, since it's been WAY past bedtime when we finally get going to bed, I've "skimped" on my stretches. : / Not a good idea. Each of these last 2 nights, I've felt more pain during the night, which prevents me from being able to fall asleep.
Hopefully tonight I can start doing my stretches by 9 PM so that by 10, I'll be ready for bed!! : ) Yes!!
Anyway -- So last night, I quickly did about half of my normal repetition of each stretch. And even though I would have liked to gargle with salt water (for my throat), it was around 11:30 PM, so I skipped it and just hopped in bed.
It felt like it took me maybe 30 minutes to fall asleep. At around 4:30 AM, I woke up due to pain and needing to take a nature break, but I didn't want to get up. But then at around 5:30 PM I got up and was going to go right back to bed, but my husband got up, so I gargled with salt water and then laid back down.
I was concerned about being able to go back to sleep, because I had just gone through an hour of not being able to get comfortable.
And it took a while, but I was finally able to fall back asleep after about an hour or an hour and a half.
The POINT is.......... I am very thankful that despite the pain (which wasn't so bad that I couldn't just lie there), I was able to deal with it and lie still and go to sleep.
It's difficult to really convey what a challenge it is to deal with the pain in my back.
Nobody can feel the pain I felt.
Nobody can really know the amount of determination it takes to just lie there and accept the pain.
I know that if I don't accept the pain, that things will mentally get bad.
Since I know how bad it can get for me mentally, I realize that the pain isn't as bad as THAT.
I prayed for help. I tried to think of positive thoughts. I sang the Charlie Chaplin song, "Smile". (My favorite rendition of that song is sung by Robert Downey Jr.: (turn down the sound on your speakers for the very first second or two!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-MA1j3ZBRs
I thought of good things -- things that I like. I envisioned being raised above my thoughts by a cherry picker.
I thought about being taken to a desert, and shown a large glass room off to my right, where I would just wait until I was called. But since I could see out of the room on all sides, I would be able to go and help someone if I saw someone in need of help.
All of that helped my mental state.
I believe that it is very important to get enough sleep each night, if you can. Early to bed, early to rise!
My Mom says, "Sleep if you can, and if you can't, that's OK -- you can get along fine without anything." I guess if you believe that, then you'll be fine, because you aren't worrying about what you don't have. : )
I try to apply that train of thought to the times when I can't sleep due to pain or panic. I just try to decide -- OK -- I'm in too much pain to be able to fall asleep. No problem. I'll be fine. I'm panicking? That's fine. I'll get through it.
But that's NOT the optimum way to operate! It's OK "in a pinch", but not something someone should do as "the norm".
It's just like it's good to have an "emergency kit" or a "first aid kit", just in case of an emergency. But it's not a good idea to only survive on THAT on a normal basis!
I think that's about all I have to say today.....
Have a good day!
Smile!
For the last couple of nights, we've gotten to bed late. : / Grrrrrrr........
It's all fun and games until the morning comes, or a few hours into sleep comes and you're awake and not doing so good due to lack of sleep!
Anyway -- I KNOW how important it is for me to do my stretches every night before I go to bed so that I can sleep without pain in my back. For those of you asking, "What pain?"....... I have pain in my back every single night. It's on the left side below my left scapula (shoulder blade).
Every.
Single.
Night.
Yep.
So........................
Therefore, I go to a Chiropractor each month, and he has "prescribed" for me exercises/stretches to do every morning and night. He also has asked me to walk about 4 times a week for 30-40 minutes each time.
The last 2 nights, since it's been WAY past bedtime when we finally get going to bed, I've "skimped" on my stretches. : / Not a good idea. Each of these last 2 nights, I've felt more pain during the night, which prevents me from being able to fall asleep.
Hopefully tonight I can start doing my stretches by 9 PM so that by 10, I'll be ready for bed!! : ) Yes!!
Anyway -- So last night, I quickly did about half of my normal repetition of each stretch. And even though I would have liked to gargle with salt water (for my throat), it was around 11:30 PM, so I skipped it and just hopped in bed.
It felt like it took me maybe 30 minutes to fall asleep. At around 4:30 AM, I woke up due to pain and needing to take a nature break, but I didn't want to get up. But then at around 5:30 PM I got up and was going to go right back to bed, but my husband got up, so I gargled with salt water and then laid back down.
I was concerned about being able to go back to sleep, because I had just gone through an hour of not being able to get comfortable.
And it took a while, but I was finally able to fall back asleep after about an hour or an hour and a half.
The POINT is.......... I am very thankful that despite the pain (which wasn't so bad that I couldn't just lie there), I was able to deal with it and lie still and go to sleep.
It's difficult to really convey what a challenge it is to deal with the pain in my back.
Nobody can feel the pain I felt.
Nobody can really know the amount of determination it takes to just lie there and accept the pain.
I know that if I don't accept the pain, that things will mentally get bad.
Since I know how bad it can get for me mentally, I realize that the pain isn't as bad as THAT.
I prayed for help. I tried to think of positive thoughts. I sang the Charlie Chaplin song, "Smile". (My favorite rendition of that song is sung by Robert Downey Jr.: (turn down the sound on your speakers for the very first second or two!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-MA1j3ZBRs
I thought of good things -- things that I like. I envisioned being raised above my thoughts by a cherry picker.
I thought about being taken to a desert, and shown a large glass room off to my right, where I would just wait until I was called. But since I could see out of the room on all sides, I would be able to go and help someone if I saw someone in need of help.
All of that helped my mental state.
I believe that it is very important to get enough sleep each night, if you can. Early to bed, early to rise!
My Mom says, "Sleep if you can, and if you can't, that's OK -- you can get along fine without anything." I guess if you believe that, then you'll be fine, because you aren't worrying about what you don't have. : )
I try to apply that train of thought to the times when I can't sleep due to pain or panic. I just try to decide -- OK -- I'm in too much pain to be able to fall asleep. No problem. I'll be fine. I'm panicking? That's fine. I'll get through it.
But that's NOT the optimum way to operate! It's OK "in a pinch", but not something someone should do as "the norm".
It's just like it's good to have an "emergency kit" or a "first aid kit", just in case of an emergency. But it's not a good idea to only survive on THAT on a normal basis!
I think that's about all I have to say today.....
Have a good day!
Smile!
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Howdy!
Hi! It's been a while since I've posted something here. : )
Dear Family and Friends -- this is mainly for me to go back and read, to see how I'm doing in the "mental" department, and for those who need hope or suggestions.
Today is October 17th, 2013.
This year, I was able to go visit my son and my sister! Yay!
(I will be vague regarding other people's lives and quite open about my own.) : )
I have only a few minutes to type, so here it goes:
This year, about every month, I have a "panic attack". The name "panic attack" doesn't even really describe it well.
I get cold. I get shake-y, and then my thoughts start running downhill, with doom and gloom at the fore-front.
Anyway -- Last night, I started feeling like a panic attack was coming on, but I was able to breathe, and think positive thoughts, and fall asleep. Yay!
However, at around 4:45 this morning, I could feel the panic attack feelings coming on stronger, and I didn't think I'd be able to stop them, so I decided I had better take my medicine (which is VERY helpful), even though I knew it'd put me to sleep for 8 hours.
So I took my medicine, stayed up until around 6 a.m., and then went to bed.
That's just the way it went. I succeeded last night in avoiding an attack, so that's progress. : )
Sometimes you win, sometimes you don't.
That's the news for now!
Have a good day!
Dear Family and Friends -- this is mainly for me to go back and read, to see how I'm doing in the "mental" department, and for those who need hope or suggestions.
Today is October 17th, 2013.
This year, I was able to go visit my son and my sister! Yay!
(I will be vague regarding other people's lives and quite open about my own.) : )
I have only a few minutes to type, so here it goes:
This year, about every month, I have a "panic attack". The name "panic attack" doesn't even really describe it well.
I get cold. I get shake-y, and then my thoughts start running downhill, with doom and gloom at the fore-front.
Anyway -- Last night, I started feeling like a panic attack was coming on, but I was able to breathe, and think positive thoughts, and fall asleep. Yay!
However, at around 4:45 this morning, I could feel the panic attack feelings coming on stronger, and I didn't think I'd be able to stop them, so I decided I had better take my medicine (which is VERY helpful), even though I knew it'd put me to sleep for 8 hours.
So I took my medicine, stayed up until around 6 a.m., and then went to bed.
That's just the way it went. I succeeded last night in avoiding an attack, so that's progress. : )
Sometimes you win, sometimes you don't.
That's the news for now!
Have a good day!
Friday, January 18, 2013
This is NOT the time to.....
It's January 18th, 2013. Yes, I'm here right now, because of "you-know-what"...
So many thoughts right now -- obviously, as normal....
This is NOT the time to review all of my short-comings. Nope. This is not the time for that. We can review those at another time.
Right now, we are focusing on feeling better, positive feelings.
This is the beginning of this morning's "episode". It can also be right there near the END of it. Let's pretend that we are near the end of these feelings.
If it starts, it will end. So why not enjoy the ending right now? : )
I'm breathing and I'm drinking water.
I have a very comfy, warm blanket wrapped around me, since I was feeling cold.
All month long, so far, I have been doing good.... no episodes. : )
Why now? Well....... I think I might know why.
Yesterday, two things happened. One was a home maintenance issue -- something that needs fixing. Soon.
The GOOD thing that happened was I was able to make my own homemade pasta!
Breathe. Smile. : )
The thing about that, is that I think that my excitement is too much excitement.
Yep. So what I want to work on, is not getting so excited that it's too much for me.
I think that too many of certain chemicals get released into my bloodstream.
So -- I will work on being happy about my accomplishments, telling my husband how happy I am about it, telling my friends, writing in my journal about how cool it is, and then leave it at that.
I don't know what else to do to calm down about it..... It seems weird to be "less happy" about things than I currently get. Perhaps I need to just be pleased with how things turn out, then calmly share my accomplishment with others. I can record in my journal that it worked out well.
Is part of my "excitement" because I doubted that it would work? Is doubt part of it? Perhaps part of the issue is that I get very disappointed when things don't work out, so I want to stay way over on the other side of the spectrum in order to avoid any of the negative feelings associated with disappointment.
I'd like to just remain calm, whether something is good or bad.
Well -- whatever the reasons are......... we won't go any further into examining them right now, because again, this is really not the time for me to examine my short-comings. There will be plenty of time for self-improvement at another time.
Right now, it's best to focus on good things. Happy thoughts. Positive things. Good things you have done.
I gave a chicken pot pie away a couple of weeks ago to a friend. : ) Be calm. Yes, that was exciting too...... I loved how the chicken pot pie turned out. It was delicious. I was happy to share my yummy pot pie with a friend and her family.
Thinking about that gets my mind excited........... And I don't need that right now.
So even though there are more thoughts that I have about that story, I'll just leave it at that.
Another nice thing I did recently was I went downtown for a chiropractic appointment, and I gave $10 to a homeless man. There are a few more details about that too, but I'm going to leave it at that for now too.
Note to self: Future things to work on -- when I write in my journal, I will write MORE information about things that happen (good and bad -- just like I used to when I was a teenager, and was SO excited about BOYS!!!!). Lately, I've been just giving the highlights. If I write about everything in detail, I'll be able to get all of my thoughts out of my head. : )
One thought I had this morning, as I'm awake here at 6 a.m. (I got up at 4 a.m.), is that the Holy Ghost speaks with a still small voice. When Jesus or Heavenly Father speak to their prophets, it's with a soft voice that is like rushing waters.
So if I aspire to be like them, then during these times, it will be helpful and good that I talk to myself, or to my husband, in a kind, soft voice -- not a worried, frantic voice. Be nice and kind to yourself, as you would be to someone else.
Yes -- the home maintenance issue is there. It will get taken care of. Just not right now. Perhaps tomorrow.
One thing I was thinking about was that one good reason to drink water (at this time, when my mouth is dry and I feel thirsty), is that water dilutes chemicals. : ) So whatever excess chemicals are in your body, can be diluted, and not as strong when you flood your body with lots of water. : ) Yay!
Breathe. Your body and mind need air too. Lots of air. So breathe deeply. It's all going to be OK. Breathing always helps. I believe that I tend to hold my breath during these times, so remembering to breathe is important and helpful.
Focus on the breath -- the air going into your nose -- your lungs filling up and deflating.... etc....
Some other stressors include: We'll be having a foreign exchange student coming to live with us in a little over a week. : ) It's going to be fine. Before we were asked if we would host a foreign exchange student, I got the inspiration to accept and/or do things that I don't want to do, or that I don't think I can do. : )
My husband just started taking some college classes. He also had to work a lot this month.
I haven't always been ready for bed by 9 or 10 p.m., so we've been up late, so he has been more tired these past few weeks. : ( I'm so sorry for that. This morning, he has gotten up now (It's 6:45 a.m. now.), and I told him I was sorry for keeping us up last night making the pasta, and he said that perhaps if I want to try making a new type of food one day, that if I did it on a Friday, then if it took a long time, it wouldn't matter, because we wouldn't have to get up early the next day. : ) I thanked him for that idea. That's a good idea.
When I have these feelings, I want to accept them. I want to feel happy, so if smile and think positive things, then I will be happier than I would be if I thought about how much fun it isn't. : )
Books that I have read suggest to just experience the feelings. It is what it is. Let the experience happen. Let the feelings pass through your body and then go. Be aware that they're here. Accept that they're here. Know that they will go. This will end.
I have 5 pens on my desk here. Let's see -- that was a good distraction! : ) What else can I talk about? Something else other than what is actually going on inside of my mind.....
As I've mentioned in a previous post -- One thing that has also been suggested to help "panic attacks" is to describe something "ad nauseam". (Blogger is telling me that nauseam isn't spelled that way, but it is.)
OK. I need to get up now and concentrate on something else.
My husband stayed to talk to me before he headed off to work. I told him that I want to be able to remain calm, no matter what happens. I told him my thoughts about being too excited or too disappointed, and doubting that something will work out. He said to always believe that things will probably turn out well. : ) Then, if it doesn't, just know that it's O.K. It's a learning experience. He said that if I look back in my life, I'll see that things have mostly worked out for me in my life.
Then I thought to myself -- I have a book titled, "The Optimistic Child", which I would like to read all the way through. I have read some of it.
I want to be more optimistic. Less negative. I have made some progress. I am working at it. I used to complain more. Then I realized that it wasn't helping me to be more happy, so I try not to complain about every little thing that I don't like.
After my husband and I finished talking, I thought -- "O.K. -- let's do this! I am an Eternal Optimist! -- ever the optimist. I will try things with the attitude that it'll most likely work!" Attitude IS actually everything. : )
One thought that I had is..... the way I am working on dealing with this issue this morning, is how I should respond to every day life in general. : ) It helps to remain calm when I have these episodes, so I believe that remaining can help me avoid getting to this point again. I don't want to live life without emotion. I just think I just need to pull back the reins a little bit and know when enough is enough.
One other thought I had a few days ago was that the mountain that I "see", is really a little mole hill. Perception is everything too. If I think it's a mountain, than it becomes a mountain due to my reaction to what I think I "see". Know what I mean Vern? : )
That's all for now.
Have a good day!
I know things will get better for me as time passes by today.
I hope things go well for you today too.
[It's now 8 a.m.. I've reviewed and edited all that I've written (sorry for the mistakes I didn't catch), and I am already feeling better. My husband said he was praying for me, and I've been praying too.] : )
Remember to Pray, breathe, drink water and smile.
So many thoughts right now -- obviously, as normal....
This is NOT the time to review all of my short-comings. Nope. This is not the time for that. We can review those at another time.
Right now, we are focusing on feeling better, positive feelings.
This is the beginning of this morning's "episode". It can also be right there near the END of it. Let's pretend that we are near the end of these feelings.
If it starts, it will end. So why not enjoy the ending right now? : )
I'm breathing and I'm drinking water.
I have a very comfy, warm blanket wrapped around me, since I was feeling cold.
All month long, so far, I have been doing good.... no episodes. : )
Why now? Well....... I think I might know why.
Yesterday, two things happened. One was a home maintenance issue -- something that needs fixing. Soon.
The GOOD thing that happened was I was able to make my own homemade pasta!
Breathe. Smile. : )
The thing about that, is that I think that my excitement is too much excitement.
Yep. So what I want to work on, is not getting so excited that it's too much for me.
I think that too many of certain chemicals get released into my bloodstream.
So -- I will work on being happy about my accomplishments, telling my husband how happy I am about it, telling my friends, writing in my journal about how cool it is, and then leave it at that.
I don't know what else to do to calm down about it..... It seems weird to be "less happy" about things than I currently get. Perhaps I need to just be pleased with how things turn out, then calmly share my accomplishment with others. I can record in my journal that it worked out well.
Is part of my "excitement" because I doubted that it would work? Is doubt part of it? Perhaps part of the issue is that I get very disappointed when things don't work out, so I want to stay way over on the other side of the spectrum in order to avoid any of the negative feelings associated with disappointment.
I'd like to just remain calm, whether something is good or bad.
Well -- whatever the reasons are......... we won't go any further into examining them right now, because again, this is really not the time for me to examine my short-comings. There will be plenty of time for self-improvement at another time.
Right now, it's best to focus on good things. Happy thoughts. Positive things. Good things you have done.
I gave a chicken pot pie away a couple of weeks ago to a friend. : ) Be calm. Yes, that was exciting too...... I loved how the chicken pot pie turned out. It was delicious. I was happy to share my yummy pot pie with a friend and her family.
Thinking about that gets my mind excited........... And I don't need that right now.
So even though there are more thoughts that I have about that story, I'll just leave it at that.
Another nice thing I did recently was I went downtown for a chiropractic appointment, and I gave $10 to a homeless man. There are a few more details about that too, but I'm going to leave it at that for now too.
Note to self: Future things to work on -- when I write in my journal, I will write MORE information about things that happen (good and bad -- just like I used to when I was a teenager, and was SO excited about BOYS!!!!). Lately, I've been just giving the highlights. If I write about everything in detail, I'll be able to get all of my thoughts out of my head. : )
One thought I had this morning, as I'm awake here at 6 a.m. (I got up at 4 a.m.), is that the Holy Ghost speaks with a still small voice. When Jesus or Heavenly Father speak to their prophets, it's with a soft voice that is like rushing waters.
So if I aspire to be like them, then during these times, it will be helpful and good that I talk to myself, or to my husband, in a kind, soft voice -- not a worried, frantic voice. Be nice and kind to yourself, as you would be to someone else.
Yes -- the home maintenance issue is there. It will get taken care of. Just not right now. Perhaps tomorrow.
One thing I was thinking about was that one good reason to drink water (at this time, when my mouth is dry and I feel thirsty), is that water dilutes chemicals. : ) So whatever excess chemicals are in your body, can be diluted, and not as strong when you flood your body with lots of water. : ) Yay!
Breathe. Your body and mind need air too. Lots of air. So breathe deeply. It's all going to be OK. Breathing always helps. I believe that I tend to hold my breath during these times, so remembering to breathe is important and helpful.
Focus on the breath -- the air going into your nose -- your lungs filling up and deflating.... etc....
Some other stressors include: We'll be having a foreign exchange student coming to live with us in a little over a week. : ) It's going to be fine. Before we were asked if we would host a foreign exchange student, I got the inspiration to accept and/or do things that I don't want to do, or that I don't think I can do. : )
My husband just started taking some college classes. He also had to work a lot this month.
I haven't always been ready for bed by 9 or 10 p.m., so we've been up late, so he has been more tired these past few weeks. : ( I'm so sorry for that. This morning, he has gotten up now (It's 6:45 a.m. now.), and I told him I was sorry for keeping us up last night making the pasta, and he said that perhaps if I want to try making a new type of food one day, that if I did it on a Friday, then if it took a long time, it wouldn't matter, because we wouldn't have to get up early the next day. : ) I thanked him for that idea. That's a good idea.
When I have these feelings, I want to accept them. I want to feel happy, so if smile and think positive things, then I will be happier than I would be if I thought about how much fun it isn't. : )
Books that I have read suggest to just experience the feelings. It is what it is. Let the experience happen. Let the feelings pass through your body and then go. Be aware that they're here. Accept that they're here. Know that they will go. This will end.
I have 5 pens on my desk here. Let's see -- that was a good distraction! : ) What else can I talk about? Something else other than what is actually going on inside of my mind.....
As I've mentioned in a previous post -- One thing that has also been suggested to help "panic attacks" is to describe something "ad nauseam". (Blogger is telling me that nauseam isn't spelled that way, but it is.)
OK. I need to get up now and concentrate on something else.
My husband stayed to talk to me before he headed off to work. I told him that I want to be able to remain calm, no matter what happens. I told him my thoughts about being too excited or too disappointed, and doubting that something will work out. He said to always believe that things will probably turn out well. : ) Then, if it doesn't, just know that it's O.K. It's a learning experience. He said that if I look back in my life, I'll see that things have mostly worked out for me in my life.
Then I thought to myself -- I have a book titled, "The Optimistic Child", which I would like to read all the way through. I have read some of it.
I want to be more optimistic. Less negative. I have made some progress. I am working at it. I used to complain more. Then I realized that it wasn't helping me to be more happy, so I try not to complain about every little thing that I don't like.
After my husband and I finished talking, I thought -- "O.K. -- let's do this! I am an Eternal Optimist! -- ever the optimist. I will try things with the attitude that it'll most likely work!" Attitude IS actually everything. : )
One thought that I had is..... the way I am working on dealing with this issue this morning, is how I should respond to every day life in general. : ) It helps to remain calm when I have these episodes, so I believe that remaining can help me avoid getting to this point again. I don't want to live life without emotion. I just think I just need to pull back the reins a little bit and know when enough is enough.
One other thought I had a few days ago was that the mountain that I "see", is really a little mole hill. Perception is everything too. If I think it's a mountain, than it becomes a mountain due to my reaction to what I think I "see". Know what I mean Vern? : )
That's all for now.
Have a good day!
I know things will get better for me as time passes by today.
I hope things go well for you today too.
[It's now 8 a.m.. I've reviewed and edited all that I've written (sorry for the mistakes I didn't catch), and I am already feeling better. My husband said he was praying for me, and I've been praying too.] : )
Remember to Pray, breathe, drink water and smile.
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